I gave up

On fixing myself

I got exhausted of trying hard to be needed and accepted  

Tired of repairing myself as a broken and unwanted thing

I gave up on

Looking for approval and earning love

Making myself better and nicer

I gave up

On all my life’s work

It broke my heart

And I became groundless

Overwhelmed with sadness and grief

And self-destructive thoughts

I fell into the deepest and darkest hole

Still longing and hoping to be whole